urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3 Candace Candace 2006-06-22T15:20:28Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3:20670 2006-06-22T15:20:28Z 2006-06-22T15:20:28Z Nelson cooing I haven't written in a long time because I have had a lot going on. I've gotten married, bought a house and had a baby. Although I've been very busy, I haven't been too busy to keep in touch with my friends. I still talk to most of them whether over the phone, through e-mail or meeting up with them for dinner. Unfortunately I have lost touch with some, but through no fault of mine. Apparently some of my friends are just far too busy with there own lives to remember the once strong and true friendship we had. I hope those of you that I no longer talk to are happy and I wish you all the best. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3:20451 2005-04-16T15:55:24Z 2005-04-16T15:55:24Z Little Black Book Top Ten of Last Night:<br />1."But he loves me loves me loves me, I know that he loves me anyway"<br />2. Shots of 151<br />3. You sassy minx<br />4. The Claddagh ring Cult that is somewhat like Captain Planet<br />5. Me getting proposed to...with KATHLEEN'S ring.<br />6. Kathleen puking by the homeless "i know this is your house and all...but I have to"<br />7. "You girls gonna be at work at 8:45?"-Jared our new hot boss, who grabs our ass and lives on a farm with cows and horses. (hot)<br />8. The beers falling off the jukebox and Tim saving me...cause it's his job to protect and serve after all he is nypd.<br />9. Katie making friends with EVERYONE<br />10. Free ride from Ray since everyone was stealing our cabs and six of us cramming into his mustang.<br /><br />we &lt;3 Black Dog <br /><br />Songfest today!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3:20185 2005-03-01T18:26:23Z 2005-03-01T18:26:23Z Nora Jones im sad, and tired and just plain worn out. <br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i dont know what im gonna do. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3:19808 2005-01-29T01:26:09Z 2005-01-29T01:26:09Z SheDaisy "Before Me and You" I had so much fun last weekend. The celtics lost and Jay wasn't there but its ok I still had a great time. <br /><br />Sunday night started out good... I was downing shots of SoCo and handling my shit really well. Then all of a sudden it hit me... and it was no good. LOL oh well. <br /><br />But now I'm sick. And its Friday night and I'm going to bed now cause I have to be at work tomorrow morning at 5 :( urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3:19655 2005-01-19T00:28:51Z 2005-01-19T00:28:51Z 50 Cent "Candy Shoppe" It's been awhile but here's a quick update...<br /><br />Christmas was good.<br /><br />New Year's was good.<br /><br />Work is the same.<br /><br />My grades were great... A, A-, A-<br /><br />Tomorrow I get my new phone. It's the new Motorola V710. It's hot. <br /><br />Friday I'm leaving for Jersey to visit Steve and go to the Nets/Celtics game where the Celtics are gonna win. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3:19273 2004-12-08T01:35:54Z 2004-12-08T01:35:54Z Alicia Keys "Karma" so here's a big FUCK YOU to a certain somebody... anyone wanna guess who? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3:18954 2004-12-07T20:41:24Z 2004-12-07T20:41:24Z <b><c>HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY KATHLEEN!!!!!</b></c> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3:18703 2004-11-09T20:58:25Z 2004-11-09T20:58:25Z John Mayer "Comfortable" I just decided I don't want to go to UMass Amherst next semester anymore. Now I'm not sure what I'm gonna do. <br /><br /><br /><br />It's amazing how people go and change on you. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3:18453 2004-11-04T01:33:29Z 2004-11-04T01:56:05Z Eminem "Mosh" So yesterday I did what only 17% of my generation did... I voted. And I felt empowered. <br />I went to bed last night completely confident that Kerry had won. Sadly I woke up and realized that most likely Bush was going to win. And at 11:30 Kerry seceded. <br /><br />I am absolutely disgusted with this country. I am no longer Proud to be an American. I am not proud to be from a country who's leader discriminates against homosexuals and women, who's leader allows a war to be fought where thousands of our troops die. This supposed "war on terror" has become a war for oil. Greed is leading this war. <br /><br />To all of those who chose not to vote I hope you're happy. I especially hope you're happy when your reproductive rights are completely taken away,you, your parents or your grandparents die from a disease that could have been cured thanks to stem cell research, your gay friends cannot get married or have a civil union for that matter, your boyfriend gets sent off to Iraq, you cannot get a job seeing as unemployment is at an all time high for the past 75 years, you cannot afford health care, gas prices continue to rise so you are forced to take public transportation... the list just goes on and on...<br /><br />I'm angry, I'm upset, and I'm disappointed. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3:18261 2004-10-21T00:58:27Z 2004-10-21T00:58:27Z Jay Z and R. Kelly "Big Chips" I'm gonna be honest, I don't usually like baseball. Frankly I used to hate it. But now, holy fuck I am so into it. I was literally screaming at the tv. Of course my parents are Yankees fans so they were bitching at me to keep it down. Call it jumping on the bandwagon or a fair weather fan but I am in love with the Red Sox. It's time to cowboy the fuck up Sox!!<br /><br />Oh by the way I just completely rocked my psych midterm. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3:18091 2004-10-14T19:58:34Z 2004-10-14T19:58:34Z "Southside" Llyod feat. Ashanti Wow its kinda been a while but things are pretty much the same. Work is still work. School is still going well. I sent in my UMass application a few weeks ago. <br /><br />I just finally saw The Village a few days ago. My love for Joaquine Phoenix has grown even more. Is he not the sweetest guy ever in that movie? <br /><br />I'm seriously like thisclose to finally getting a car. I've been saving for a while now. It's rough not being able to buy myself all nice things. But soon I'll appreciate it when I can drive myself around. <br /><br />Thats pretty much it for now. But oh, if you are in Attleboro next Wednesday stop by our Dunkin... It's the One Year Anniversary of the Dunkin Latte and we're having a radio station come from 10-2. WOOT WOOT. <br /><br /><br /><i>Sometimes we don't do what we want to do because we're afraid that other people will know that we want to do them.</i> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3:17741 2004-09-27T03:46:57Z 2004-09-27T03:46:57Z Sarah McLachlan "Full of Grace" So apparently this is lets all be pissed at Candace week. Oh fucking well. <br /><br />Is it just me or are guys fucking assholes. Like really. What the hell did I do wrong? <br /><br /><br />I'm tired of the bullshit and petty drama. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3:17508 2004-09-11T01:25:46Z 2004-09-11T01:27:05Z Mase "Breath Stretch Shake"... let it go;) <b><i>I could only think about your lips</b></i><br /><br /><br />Oh its been awhile but lets see. My rents went away a couple weekends ago. 2 Benefit Street hadn't seen that much fun in quite some time ;)<br /><br />Work is still the same. Some new drama. Who knows maybe we'll be on the news but hopefully not. <br /><br />I started classes at BCC this past Wednesday. I have American Civilizations on Mondays from 7-9:40, Psych on Wednesdays from 7-(:40 and Sociology on Thursday at the same time. Should be easy. But I'm still working full time and going and paying for school. <br /><br />I miss Wagner a lot. Not so much Staten Island, just Wagner, the people and my girls. It's rough. Living at home isn't easy after getting so used to living at college. The whole lack of a car doesn't help much either. Oh well we'll see what happens in the spring. *Keep those fingers crossed*<br /><br />That's pretty much it. Its an early night tonight cause I have work at 5 tomorrow... yeah thats 5 in the morning until 1. God I love Dunkin Donuts!<br /><br />&lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3:17312 2004-08-29T19:52:43Z 2004-08-29T19:52:43Z Johnny ;) Long crazy week.<br /><br />More to come later... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3:16982 2004-08-24T18:21:45Z 2004-08-24T18:21:45Z Jammin 94.5 maybe im just being a super bitch but personally i think i have a right to be just slightly annoyed. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3:16464 2004-08-23T19:50:25Z 2004-08-23T19:50:25Z Madonna- GHV2 <b><i>And does it make you mad To find that I have grown...I'll bet it hurts so bad to see the strength that I have shown</b></i><br /><br />The concert was amazing. Adam Levine and Johnny. Enough said. <br /><br />I finally got my bday gift from Shortee... she got me a canopy thingy for my bed and I love it!<br /><br />I've pretty much had enough of work. Well actually just Mary. I really hate her. A lot. <br /><br />Other than work being annoying everything else is going just super... de duper :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3:16231 2004-08-12T21:27:45Z 2004-08-12T21:27:45Z Taking Back Sunday Passed out in our school clothes so we'd wake up in our Sunday's best<br />I never asked for your opinion, I just got it and I get it<br />You move slow like daytime drama<br />And I'm boring like his songs<br />So while I'm taking you for granted<br />We'll be humming along<br /><br />Well cross my heart and hope to...<br />I'm lying just to keep you here<br />So reckless (so reckless), so,<br />So thoughtless (so thoughtless)<br />So careless, I could care less<br /><br />Well cross my heart and hope to...<br />I'm lying just to keep you here<br />(So reckless)<br />Well she's so heartless,<br />And I could care less<br /><br />So paint your face up something elegant<br />And this time maybe a darker shade of red<br />Cause a long night means a fist fight<br />Against your pillow and my pearly whites<br />I want to hear you scream you like me better on my knees<br />So let us pray<br />(we don't believe in second chances)<br />So let us pray<br /><br />Don't you ask me<br />Don't you move (anywhere)<br /><br />Cross my heart and hope to<br />I'm lying just to keep you here<br />So reckless (so reckless), so,<br />So thoughtless (so thoughtless)<br />So careless, I could care less<br /><br />Well Cross my heart and hope to<br />I'm lying just to keep you here<br />(So reckless)<br />Well she's so heartless <br />And I could care less<br /><br />Well cross my heart and hope to<br />I'm lying just to keep you here (I'll keep you here, I'll keep you here)<br /><br />One of us never did it but we're taking it all.<br />And tell me why you never promised that you wanted it all.<br />And her eyes never batted when she said it<br />It's a long night, hoping knowing...<br /><br />This glass house is burning down (hoping all night, knowing...)<br />You light the match, I'll stick around (hoping all night, knowing...)<br />I'll give you everything you want (hoping all night, knowing...)<br />And wish the worst of what I was (hoping all night, knowing...)<br /><br />Tonight won't make a difference<br />Tonight won't make a difference<br />Tonight won't make a difference<br />Well tonight won't make a difference<br />Well tonight won't make a difference<br />Tonight won't make a difference<br />Tonight won't make a difference<br />Well tonight won't make a difference urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3:16074 2004-08-03T22:51:03Z 2004-08-03T22:51:03Z Bush "Glycerine" I haven't really updated in awhile. I don't know I'm kinda over the whole LJ thing. Ok so let's see... been just hanging out with some old and some new friends lately. Working too much. Went to work drunk with one hour of sleep on a Saturday morning... found out some very interesting info about the managers and owner of dunkies... and two of the cops who come through DT... still haven't seen The Notebook and now I want to see The Village... but I have seen about every other movie. <br /><br />So I've been really sick since Friday... at one point my temp reached 105. After two doctor visits, 3 days out of work (plus the 2 I already had off) and 2 chest xrays, a urine analysis, throat culture, rapid strep test, and a dozen blood tests they finally found out I have freakin Pneumonia. Super isnt it?! So now I am on Zythromax and some other antibiotic. Today is the first day I've been out of the house (other than the doctors and hospital) and I actually drove somewhere and I was able to take a stand up shower rather than a damn bath... its good to have my energy back! <br /><br />Well thats pretty much it... John Mayer and Maroon 5 on August 20th with my girl! CAN'T WAIT! Oh and is anyone else completely loving this song?!<br /><br /><br /><br />Beauty queen of only eighteen<br />She had some trouble with herself<br />He was always there to help her<br />She always belonged to someone else<br /><br />I drove for miles and miles<br />And wound up at your door<br />I've had you so many times but somehow<br />I want more<br /><br />I don't mind spending everyday<br />Out on your corner in the pouring rain<br />Look for the girl with the broken smile<br />Ask her if she wants to stay awhile<br />And she will be loved<br />And she will be loved<br /><br />Tap on my window, knock on my door<br />I want to make you feel beautiful<br />I know I tend to get so insecure<br />It doesn't matter anymore<br /><br />It's not always rainbows and butterflies<br />It's compromise that moves us along<br />My heart is full and my door's always open<br />You can come anytime you want<br /><br />I don't mind spending everyday<br />Out on your corner in the pouring rain, oh<br />Look for the girl with the broken smile<br />Ask her if she wants to stay awhile<br />And she will be loved<br />And she will be loved<br />And she will be loved <br />And she will be loved<br /><br />I know where you hide<br />Alone in your car<br />Know all of the things that make you who you are<br />I know that goodbye means nothing at all<br />Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls<br /><br />Tap on my window, knock on my door<br />I want to make you feel beautiful<br /><br />I don't mind spending every day<br />Out on your corner in the pouring rain<br />Look for the girl with the broken smile<br />Ask her if she wants to stay awhile<br />And she will be loved<br />And she will be loved<br />And she will be loved<br />And she will be loved<br /><br />Please don't try so hard to say goodbye<br />Please don't try so hard to say goodbye<br /><br />I don't mind spending everyday<br />Out on your corner in the pouring rain<br /><br />Please don't try so hard to say goodbye -Maroon 5 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3:15789 2004-07-17T22:56:51Z 2004-07-17T22:56:51Z HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY ROCKY!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3:15531 2004-07-15T19:58:05Z 2004-07-15T19:58:05Z Janet Jackson- Design of the Decade Interesting day at work. That mother fucking pain in the ass retard Eric got himself fired. He decided to give all his friends free food in front of Jen the manager. Fucking idiot. So she dragged his sorry ass in the office to fire him and his defense is "everyone else does it and they said I could do it too...". Yes Eric give your friends a discount but keep it on the dl. Fucking dumbass.<br /><br />So then a bus of mentally retarded kids (17 of them to be exact) came in. They were so nice and polite and pretty damn intelligent. <br /><br />So the icing on the cake. This guy comes in and drops off an application. So Mary, Jen and I are reading it over and there is this question about whether or not you have been convicted of a felony. And he checked the yes box. Next to it he writes... "I was in jail from 91-99 for armed robbery" WTF. So I go "Jen look at is this way... we hire him and he robs us from within the store. We don't hire him and he goes psycho and shoots all of us and then robs us. It a lose lose situation."<br /><br />Yup work is always interesting. <br /><br />Last night Jenn, her mom and I went to the drive in. Saw Dodgeball and the Stepford Wives. Both were good. And I love Vince Vaughn :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3:15115 2004-07-12T22:54:58Z 2004-07-12T22:54:58Z Hanson "Penny and Me" Looong week. Work has been wicked busy. This whole waking up at 5 every morning is killing me.<br /><br />Jenn and I went out on Friday night. We were gonna go to the movies but we ended up driving around for a good 2 1/2 hours instead. We ended up at Eli's house and then out to Applebee's. Of course we had to stop in and visit Lucy and get some coffee. She had a mofo line at drive thru and customers at counter so guess what... yup we helped her out. There I am in my low cut tank top and flip flops, hair down serving the cutomers. Gotta love it. Jan would have loved seeing that.<br /><br />Worked 6-2 on Sat. Fucking Mary sucks ass. She OTed and I made at DT. Her mutha fuckin nouse voice annoyed the shit out of me. I hate her. Then Jenn and I babysat for Lucy. I love her kids. Ryan is 1, Brooke is 4 and Briana is 5. Brooke has cerebral palsy but she is absolutely adorable. So anyway they didnt get home until 1:30 and Jenn and I slept over her house cause we both had to be at work by 5 on Sunday morning. Well we didnt go to sleep until 2:30... and got up at 4. Yup 1 and 1/2 hours of sleep. I was so fucking tired. Had like 3 shots of espresso but it didnt help. Oh and Jan decided to have me OT for drive thru and Jenn was making. That was a fucking blast. LOL. <br /><br />Today was ok. I was hella tired though. So glad its my weekend. Finally I can sleep in. Hopefully we're going to the beach either tomorrow or Wednesday... that is if the weather holds out. <br /><br />Umm so I really want a tattoo. Not sure what I want though. Let me know what you guys think. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3:15075 2004-07-09T20:35:01Z 2004-07-09T20:35:01Z Ashlee Simpson "Pieces of Me" Its been a while but mostly I've just been working a lot. Went camping for a couple night this past week. I had fun. But two days was enough.<br /><br /><br />Mom and Steve stayed their for the week so we had the house to ourselves for a few nights. I'm glad I had my snuggle buddy to keep me company;) I decided I'm far too much of wimp to live by myself. <br /><br />I'm trying to save as much money as I can. And I have been doing pretty good with it except for that one little (and by little I mean BIG) shopping trip. Oh well I deserved it. <br /><br /><br />Steph made me a new background cause she's the shit. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3:14603 2004-07-03T02:06:42Z 2004-07-03T02:06:42Z nothing Dear Candace:<br /> I have thought a lot about you in the last three or four months. Frances told me you were working at Dunkin Donuts. I expect the thing you like about it most is payday. It is a good thing I do not work there. I would love everything they sell! I can't afford to be eating that, and I am not talking about the dollars, just the pounds.<br /> My brother's son who was born and raised in The Netherlands, is named Duncan Domey. When he first came to live in America to go to<br />school, Guess what the kids all called him? You got it!<br /> If you ever come up to camp, I would like to meet you. I am so sorry for the life you have had without genuine support from your dad,including the love and caring a girl needs, plus the support for college.<br /> You must be pretty angry about all that, and pretty hurt at the same<br />time. I know a little about that as I was a "divorce orphan" from age 6 upward, but my dad died when I was 9. My mother basically fended me off to foster homes and boarding schools most of the rest of my childhood and teen years. We have never really "connected" at all ever since, at least<br />not emotionally. <br /> I wanted to drop you a line about Douglas. I have come to know him better in the intervening months as he worked for me off and on from January to June. We had a parting of the ways, which was quite sad. He quit and I was glad because I had HAD it with his doing things the way he wanted them, not doing what I asked, and of making a mess of things in the process. Unfortunately, I lost my temper big time when he picked up his tools and walked home. I haven't been that angry for years.<br /> So being furious ("Hell hath no fury as a woman scorned"-<br />Shakespeare) I carried my two steel ladders down the road and flung them on his mother's cement step. Such a glorious and raucous noise they made. Then I went in the cottage while they were eating supper and shreikingly ordered him to put them back together. He ordered me out, threatened to call the police, (to which I made a cutting remark), he said I didn't have much intelligence for a college graduate (to which I resisted the impulse to say "even so, I made a living", On my way back to the cottage, I flung a caulking tube at him, narrowly missing the cottage window in full flight.<br /> Wow! Was I in gear! Stunning fight! Of course I knew would have to apologize before the time I had my morning prayer time the next day. Which I did, in a long letter thanking him for all he did for me.<br /> However the whole episode was quite instructive. <br /> I learned that Douglas cannot CANNOT take any ANY personal<br />criticism. He is entirely paranoid. And I can't take being rejected. Does that sound like two people you know?<br /> This is all very sad, as Douglas is a basically worthy person,<br />and I think he is trying very hard to do the right thing.<br /> I could see from this, that when you, Candace, attempt to<br />communicate with him, both you and he know all about his faults, and he cannot take even thinking about what you must think about him. He fails to see that it the truth must be dealt with, not the criticism itself.<br /> I have re-read the e-mails I sent you in Jan-Feb. and think that all I said it still worthwhile. But I can also say that, having<br />experienced his actions for myself, that it is very hurtful.<br /> The fact that he quit working for me was bad enough, but the<br />untrue gossip about me that circulated wasn't even about the fight. It is being said around the campus that "Ginger interfered between Douglas and his daughter." <br /> I couldn't figure that out , since I have never done anything but try to get you both together. Now I think it may be that because you found out where he was, that he has been served court papers to try to get him to pay up. <br /> Good luck on that, as he still has no job, no licence, and no<br />money. (The amount that I paid him would amount to an average of $9.00 a day, and one can't eat on that! <br /> Douglas has managed to get off all the jail problems, so far and is now paroled to his mother's keeping. <br /> Of course she doesn't speak to me anymore. I wonder if I should give Douglas back his lovely glass eagle ornament. If you want it, I will send it to you. And maybe I should give Frances back the Ty polar bear she gave me. I feel guilty having it, knowing how much she loved it, but I think Douglas urged her to give it to me for Christmas. <br /> Sometime in March Douglas found out that I contacted you and was so mad that I finally gave up and showed him the e-mails, thinking he would calm down since they were so flattering to himself. That didn't seem to matter to him at all, and he was still mad. I didn't figure it out until just now that it was because he was afraid of your mother putting the courts onto him.<br /> I am really very sorry about all that has happened. I was trying to help everybody, and it seems no one was helped, not even me.<br /> There is a lesson in all this somewhere for me. Like trying to mind my own business and not trying to help out poor orphans, lame and blind widows and homeless unemployed former servicemen in legal limbo. <br /> I have put my cottage at Rumney up for sale. I don't really want to be there anymore; plus I need the money.<br /> On the lighter side: Joshua is second in command at a boys camp. He is the battalion commander at Boys Brigade camp. His father and uncle both went there as kids. <br /> I really would rather you not tell Frances and Douglas that I<br />wrote this. On the other hand, it can't get any worse between us than it already is. At least I tell the truth and the whole truth as much as I recollect. <br /> Hope you get this e-mail. I guess I'll find out.<br /> Josh's Grammy urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3:14371 2004-06-27T22:44:58Z 2004-06-27T22:44:58Z Something Corporate "Only Ashes" I'm so very stressed right now. Pepe has to have surgery on Friday. They think it might be cancer. Nana is out of the hospital but she's a mess. <br /><br />Work is nuts. Jen and Mary want either Greg or I to be the manager for the afternoon during the week. I really don't want that. I like mornings and I no longer have patience for idiots... aka Eric and Melissa. <br /><br />I'm tired and worn out. I'm bitchy and whiney. I'm indecisive and I hate it. I work 40 hours a week and spend no money and yet I will still never have enough money to buy a car and pay for school. <br /><br />Speaking of school... I still don't know where I am going this fall. I don't want to go to a new school. I'm angry and bitter. I won't ever have a "pleasant attitude" about it. <br /><br />Yes I am ranting and being whiney. If you don't like it than too damn bad. This is my journal and I will write whatever I want. So there. And yes I have my period in case you couldn't tell. This sucks. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ctinkerbell3:14109 2004-06-23T21:26:06Z 2004-06-23T21:26:06Z Mattie Stepanek passed away last night. I'm really sad now. I actually cried when I heard it on the news this morning.<br /><br />Nana is back in the hospital. Pepe went in the hospital today to get a CAT Scan to figure out what the lump in his bladder is. <br /><br />I went to Dunkin this afternoon and got my paycheck. I got a raise.. woo hoo! <br /><br />So we're going camping the week of July 5th. I'm too poor to take the whole week off so I'll only go the two days I have off. It'll be fun though. <br /><br />I've been really stressed lately with everything that has been going on. And as a result I got a cold... at least that's mom's explanation for it. <br /><br />Today was actually a very productive day. I was up at 7:30 and cleaned the entire house. I clean like whoa crazy when I get stressed. Oh and we got our new pool yesterday!!! So if Steve does all the shock treatments and chlorine to it, it'll be ready for use tomorrow! Holler!